don't grow up it's a scam
The same way they say we should never meet our heroes, similarly we shouldn’t have to grow up. The hope that’s lost as we grow older and see life for exactly what it is can be extremely disconcerting. The magic completely fades. My friends sometimes tell me that I live in a fairytale land but it’s nothing compared to the dreams I had to take over the world as a child. When I was younger the stars seemed so easy to reach. The problems of the world seemed straight forward and easy to “fix”. Put the work in for the career you want (singer/songwriter/actress/model etc for me) and you’d get far. I had the plan, I just needed the platform!
It’s when you get older, unless you’re heavily privileged, that you realise that there are systems actively working against both your platform and your plan. You also realise that the world is very ugly. There are people who don’t value humanity. Who would put their own personal gain over human life. There are enough resources to end poverty, homelessness, child hunger and nothing is done because extreme wealth for a small, white few requires extreme desolation of indigenous, brown and black people. And these people only want more.
One of my primary motivations for success as a child, apart from helping my own family out, was making a real impact on those with less than me but when you see that the very charities that purport to help children in need are more often than not part of the problem, it’s very sickening! It’s been hard for me to find motivation as an adult because the world doesn’t make sense! What exactly am I doing this all for?
I really wanted to have some sort of hopeful message to leave my readers in good spirits but I’ll be honest this is still where I’m at. I’m left questioning what the point is of doing good when structures are built to keep people in bad situations. When we can all see that our taxes should not be spent on military when there are children starving and student doctors and nurses are paying to be provided an education as if the world wouldn’t go to shit without them, when we know the things we need, food, clothing and shelter are rights we all should have considering none of us actually had a decision to be here yet it’s something we have to “work hard” for.
Where I’m at is to work so I can live good with the people I love, careful not to become greedy like the people making the world harder than it needs to be for others. I speak out where I can, fight the battles that make sense to fight. Give where I can directly to those who need it especially Go Fund Me’s. Elevate the people who have it in them to do the hard work at the front lines and those who are doing the reading and the writing that could one day open people’s minds to what the world could be. It’s all I can do right now.
I would love to know what exactly it is you’re living for. What motivates you? Or are we all running this rat race aware that it doesn’t make sense but hoping there is a bigger plan at work? I need to know so @ me or message me. See you in two weeks!
